Sunday, July 23, 2017

Being Enough

Recently I have been enduring a feeling that I can't seem to get rid of. A feeling that I have recently found out that many of my friends have been experiencing as well. An empty, sort of lost feeling that is strong enough to throw off the entire day, every day. The feeling of not being or doing enough. 

Not good enough in any aspect of my life. Not a good enough friend, daughter, grand-daughter, wife, sister. Not good enough to be in my major in school or to get a job in that career field (cyber security). Not good enough body wise- not skinny enough and not good enough at eating healthy. Not good enough at my hobbies or creative outlets and blogging. Everything I want to do and be, I fall short. I'm even terrified of not being a good enough mother when the day comes. Like I'm half empty in every aspect of myself. Like I'm not good at anything.

 I want to do cyber security, I want to lead a healthy lifestyle, I want to travel, I want to be the best for my family, I want to have a "successful" blog and be a stylist. I want so much and have the highest expectations of myself, which is great... but I need to be forgiving of myself and give myself some slack at times too. Comparing myself and my life to everyone else's around me is such poison, but it's hard to break out of that mindset. 

I try to imagine my life sometimes in its own small bubble and just really focus in on what I can do to better myself and reach my goals, without looking at the world as a whole. And I'm not saying that "I'm the center of the universe" AT ALL, but I think it's absolutely necessary to imagine so every now and then. That's when things can get hard because you're forced to look at and analyze what's right in front of you... but I think it's healthy to sort of take accountability of yourself and your surroundings. 

For anyone else who is sort of going through a "quarter-life" crisis right now, this is for you...and myself:

This is your life. This is your situation, whether it's ideal or not. Your choices have gotten you here. HOWEVER, nothing is permanent! You can, starting right this second, make a decision to better yourself or take a step in the direction of a situation that IS ideal for you. It is completely okay to be selfish every once in awhile and it's okay to have a voice and an opinion about how your life is going. Whatever your situation- married, single, kids, no kids, school, no school, etc- you can always do something for yourself! Stay hungry for happiness and self fulfillment! It's so important.

If I can come back and read this every day, I think it will help. Even if just for a minute. If you have any comments or advice, please let me know. It is all very appreciated!


Connor and I at the Farmer's Market this weekend

Sunday, July 9, 2017

5 Favorite DIYs

Hey guys!

Recently, I have been getting a lot of questions about some of the DIYs (Do-It-Yourself) I have done within the last few months, so I figured I would write a post about it. Though I would LOVE to take credit for the ideas of the crafts I have done, Pinterest, as well as other bloggers, have been my main source of projects.

There are 4 reasons that I craft. 1) self-expression. 2) I am a 24 year old student who likes nice things on a low budget. 3) It's a hobby that I feel like I am pretty good at. 4) I love the feeling of accomplishing something- especially something I could actually use!

So whether you just love to craft or maybe you're not so artsy and just want to save a few bucks, these DIY projects are fairly simple and a lot of fun!



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Obviously I have a thing for Copper, BUT if you just buy one small pipe of Copper from your local Home Depot, you can do so much with it!

Now get to it! It's Sunday- the perfect day to do something creative.

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Thursday, June 15, 2017

Aloha, Oahu!

Hello, hello!

It is now the middle of June and I can't even remember the last time I posted or updated you on what's going on in my life! I could look back at my last post, but I am feeling a bit too lazy for that right now. Though I haven't written here in awhile, there hasn't been much that has changed. Connor and I are in school full-time over the Summer, we still don't have too much of a social life, and we are still in Utah.

Though life has been pretty much the same for the last few months, I have still managed to get out of Utah and have some fun a couple of times this Summer. In May, my Spring semester ended and I had about a week until my Summer classes started, so I took a trip to Arizona to visit family for a week, and then headed to Disneyland with Connors family for a few days. Although Connor had to stay home to work (yes-I went without him), I still had a blast and got to spend more time with his family.

About 3 weeks or so after Disneyland, Connor, his family, and I were off to Las Vegas to fly to Oahu, Hawaii! It still feels like a dream. I honestly never thought I'd ever be able to go to Hawaii in my life- It seemed like a pipe dream. It hadn't fully hit me where we were going until I saw the turquoise water meeting the lush, green land out of the airplane window. I was in awe.

The family rented a huge, beautiful home on North Shore with views out of every window of our own stretch of beach. With all of the windows open, a slight breeze, and the sound of the waves, I have never slept better in my entire life.

While in Hawaii, we went on amazing hikes to see waterfalls and gorgeous views, ate at roadside food trucks, went to a swap meet, snorkeled, went to the PCC (Polynesian Cultural Center) and to visit the LDS temple. Our absolute favorite beach that we visited was at Bellows Air Force Station. Luckily I am "retired" from the Air Force and was able to get us on base. The sand was like white powder and the water was the most amazing turquoise color that I have ever seen.

After a week of paradise, we had to return to reality, and it was painful. I guess if we got to have experiences like this all of the time, it just wouldn't feel as special. Below are some photos from our trip!